job interview

oh boy oh boy oh boy oh boy!
i’m having an interview later at 10am in Grand Dorsett.
interview to be a part time waitress.

i was like really, really SHOCKED. okay i was having breakfast with my mum in Fong Kee after church. and all of a sudden, i sensed vibration on my lap. so i took my phone and saw an unknown local number. fyi, i don’t answer stranger’s calls. no idea why, maybe it’s a phobia too. haha. but somehow, i remembered i saved that number in my mum’s phone before. Sheraton. which is now Grand Dorsett. and i was, huh? so i answered the call and the people on the phone was like, “morning!” and i replied, “mor—ning?” then he said, “izwan bah ni.” ohhhhhhhhh so it’s izwan. phew. i thought it was some kind of manager or something. so he told me that i’m going to have interview tomorrow which is today at around 10am. oh my, i haven’t even done my resume, and all the more, not even handed it over to the manager. and how am i happened to have this interview? well, he said he asked the manager if there’s any vacancy and he said yea the restaurant needs a part time waitress and asked him to call me for interview. wow. at first, i thought, hmm, need people, a part timer, hmm, is there loads of works to do? gosh. but hey, the reason i wanna do a part time job is first, to kill time. second, to gain experiences, and finally, the third, to have money in my own pocket.

i called my cousin who’s taking diploma in hospitality to ask her some infos about what waiters and waitresses do. after the chat, she asked me bout the pay and i said RM3/hour. and she asked again, what am i going to do with that money. and, for once, i stuck. i couldn’t think of what i wanna do with my money. i mean, of course, i wanna go shopping. but, as i think harder and deeper in that just few seconds, i said, hmm i don’t know. but in my mind, i was already thinking of something else and that’s a secret. shh.

i just printed out my resume and mom perfected it. and right now, i’m having butterflies in my stomach. ahh same ol idiom. nervous. wish me luck. i’ll be back with the news later. bad or good news? it’s all in God’s hands.

update! update! in need to post something. superficially bored. i remembered alicia tagged me about 25 random facts bout me in facebook. but i haven’t wrote it yet. so, to kill time, i guess i’ll just do it now.

1. my favourite color is green. (i know, this fact ain’t random. but that’s what i seemed to think of first.)

2. i write poems.

3. i’m phobic to instant noodles. even the smell. i can throw up you know.

4. some say i’m a psychic, but believe me, i am not. i merely playing with one’s thinking course and that’s how i get to know what people was thinking and would say next. it’s not psychic. i do not have psychic power. (i wish i had tho.)

5. i screwed up my final exam.

6. i drive alone downtown today (april 23) for the first time.

7. my favourite drink is Iced barley with milk.

8. chocolate is my number one favourite. or should i say cocoa?

9. i can do things really perfect if i want to.

10. i read alex evans.

11. i watch movies almost everyday recently.

12. i’m attending a traditional spa to treat my face and tone my body.

13. i love tinkerbell.

14. i don’t like texting. it hurts my little fingers.

15. to tell you the truth, being in matriculation college has really changed me a lot. i mean, A LOT.

16. i’m going to find a part time job.

17. i have a kid’s soul and an adult thinking. perfect irony huh.

18. like really, i changed a lot. don’t be surprised the next time you see me.

19. i’m hoping to study overseas.

20. i’m finishing a romantic novel(desire’s disguise) i found when cleaning the house.

21. i talk rarely, really. (one of my changes)

22. i wish to take up psychology.

23. i don’t watch tv that much.

24. i have two hamsters.

25. i get crushes as much as i crush a lot, but i’m a heartbreaker. don’t bother me.

there you go, 25 random facts about me. hope you’ll get to know me better.

activities.

currently listening to :

• kristy are you doing okay – the offspring

• the climb – miley cyrus

• i will be – leona lewis (was performed once by one of our students during the chinese new year and culture night)

• knock knock – lenka

recently watched movies

• just my luck

• the devil wears prada (last watched two years ago)

• just like heaven

• sydney white (last watched two years ago too)

• it’s a boy girl thing

• st. trinians

coming up tonight

• legally blonde

part two

i’m back. u guys won’t believe this. my mom actually ask me to drive downtown alone, to pay the bills???? wow. this is too good to be true. and it is. i think a car ran into me. a hit and run situation. i wanted to go Bank Islam to deposit money to my brother. i round and round and round, no parking is available at sight. and finally, perfect. a one-car parking lot. so i thought it’d be easy. see, uhm, i’m not actually good at side parking. i’m more to the straight one. it is so easy to slip in and i love reverse parking. so then, after i went to the bank and was on my way back to the car, i saw the side of the front car is slightly, bent, if that’s the word to describe that. i don’t know. i don’t know car terms. so my heart was like, raced in anxious. oh no! what have i done? is that my fault? or was it that way before cuz i remember mom said someone hit her or she hit something i guess. but i wasn’t sure which side it was, well, uhm, both side are bent, or should i say “dented”? i don’t know. ohh noo. she’s gonna kill me when she sees that. please, pray for me that i won’t be in too much trouble. it wasn’t my fault.

i’m having too many blogs. which should i manage? this? blogspot? facebook? my blogspot seemed a little neglected. facebook? i can’t access it now, not with the wireless line i’m using right now. i’m still waiting for my home’s wireless line. the “wire” one was dead, long ago. i’m going to buy the modem with my own money. or at least ask mum to sponsor some? nah. let’s see.

you probably be wondering what i’ll be doing these few months before going to University. hmm, let’s not say that first. i must go through knowing my pre-U result first. okay so it’ll be like 26 days more and the result is out. in the mean time, i was planning to do a part time job. my friend just texted me this morning, he said there’s a vacancy in Grand Dorsett Hotel. and he helped me take the application form. and i’m gonna go get from him later this evening. i want to be able to have m own money. i don’t wanna keep asking from my mom. i don’t want that. i want to work on my own. and buy things i want without being nagged by mom. yeap, that’s my aim right now. to find work, and get money. i’ve heard a lot about my college friends’ experiences in working. they were all fun, altho there is some that don’t. but, by working, you get to learn a whole lot of thing, rather than being at home, watching tv and being free all the time. go out. see the world. yea, see the world. u are missing a lot of things, wonderful things. now stop whatever u do and just walk down the road or walk along the beach and u’ll be astonished of how fool u have been all this time. and to mention, u’ve been the frog that had long spent its time in the well. no offence.

u’re not motivated, aren’t you? all right, just forget it.

hmm, now i’d like to share about the friends i made in college. the first and foremost thing about making friends that i find worth to tell is this. being friends with the st.francis girls. u know, i’ve always have a thing about convent girls. well it all started when i entered st.anthony school. which, previously was a boys school(my dad schooled there before)  and now it’s unisex. st.anne and st.anthony are just next to each other. and everytime it’s time to go home, i’ll see bitches. oops. harsh. sorry. just expressing my thoughts. and they all think they’re good at things. wait up sista, i’m better than you. haha. kidding. i probably will be on the most hated list by now. and the activities they do in their school, they were all very disturbing to me and my fellow classmates. yea, miss that ol’ days. so, since then, i am an anti-convent. well, i did get influenced by words i heard from people that convent girls are snobbish and bitchy and all those dirty words. so, that adds to me being more and more hating them. until, i befriended three of the st francis convent girls. they were ranz, olga, and sara. they were great. ohh and sara speaks like an american. haha. although at first i did have some bad perspectives about them, but that was just because i was still hating convent girls. we weren’t close until some “robbery” happened. yea, we were afraid about our safety and were busy decorate our rooms with safety measures – alarms, extra door locks, brooms, cardboard. just so you know, ranz and olga were room mates and i’m their neighbour, next door neighbour. and then theres’s water crisis where i began to have shower at the back of my room. i should call it my backyard. haha. and then ranz had few showers there too and we just got talking, sharing things. well, we don’t talk much. but at least we did became friends. compared to the first semester, we didn’t really greet each other. a lot of my friends didn’t like sara though, haha, they thought she was snobbish. hmm, at first, i do think that way too, but then, nah, i corrected them but they don’t buy my word. well who cares. but time flies. we only get to know each other for a short while. but i hope we’ll get to know each other more in the future. love you girls. and ohh, i wouldn’t be friends, like really friends with them if i hadn’t had crisis with my own friends too though. so, i’m just gonna thank God for whatever that has happened. maybe my friend crisis opens another door for me to explore the other side of the world. yes. i believe so.

there are tonnes more other friends that i managed to make in college. they were faezah, shela, iqah, bella, elve, my room mates, helen, fyda, a lot. i just couldn’t type them down. i wanted too, but okayyy i’ll type it down. debbie rosalind, charlene, audrey, another audrey, my lecture mates, all right, i’m just gonna stop here. it bores me. sorry.

and hmm what am i going to talk about next? ohh i know. maybe i’ll talk about things i’d missed after leaving college. well, i’ve already missed some things when semester two started. i miss to have small lecture group. in semester two, we had to combine with four other physical students for Chemistry and Math lectures. it sucked. cuz i got teased for answering the lecturers. and got teased for asking. but in the end, i managed to feel proud of what i did despite all the teasing. at least i didn’t fall asleeep and at elast i get to know some things and at least i my mind is active! okay back to the topic. i miss sitting at the “farthest back” in lecture. where i could read story books, encyclopedias, bluetooth songs, talking, laughing. i did that in almost all lectures, especially maths and biology. chemistry, a little, since i love chemistry. just so you know, i prefer physical chemistry over organic chemistry. sorry Miss Soon, i failed to spare love for organic chemistry. okay, what else would i be missing? oh yea, crushes. i won’t forget them. and the lovely voices. the smiles. i’ll bury them deep in my heart and lock it and unlock it when i’m old and i shall tell my grandchildren. hahahha.

hmmmm, i guess that’s it for now then. you won’t want to read such a long blog. it’d be boring if you do.

bye bye.

p.s. all my friends out there, who happened to find my blog, do send me an sms, saying hi marieanne. i miss you. and i’ll reply, i miss you too friend! lol.

and uhm, Mr. Rudy, i want the edited pictures that you took of me. peace.

finished college.

it’s been six days since i finished Pre-U college. We finished on April 17th, and i was going to head straight back home after i finished my last chemistry paper. but since i have a heart, i would just forget bout that and stay another day there with my friends. i spent my evening taking pictures with lecture mates and neighbours. and then i take my last evening shower at the back of my room with a forestry hill view. i had been having my shower since i think, the third  time our college had water crisis. i love taking my shower there. the fresh air, the nice view, the greenery scene. lovely. it’s a total opposite having shower in the toilet. dark. gloomy. moulds. it was just disgusting and horrible.

on Sunday evening, i started cleaning my room before and after watching Hannah Montana. yea, i love watching it. i know it sound teenage-y, say what?? i’m still a teenage. i just love their conversations. but i didn’t finished cleaning my room. i ended up piling all my things outside in the living room. haha. the next day, Monday morning, i made a finishing touch to my room. and i cleaned the living room and the storeroom. what a day. and the next day again, i Tuesday morning, i cleaned the bathroom. and in the evening, i mopped the kitchen and the living room. and that’s it. i’m done. no more chores. well, it’s not like my mom asked me to do all these chores. it’s just me who wanted to do it. and i don’t know why. probably, i was just trying to fulfill my obligation as a child. cuz, i haven’t been doing any chores since i left for college. and even if i went home once every two weeks, i never do any of the chores, including helping her to cook. how bad.

okay now i want to talk about my college life. in the last week of college, we had our final examination. and we have a day off, that is Wednesday cuz it was Malacca’s historical day. so the college there is off, and so do we and the rest. i thought i was going to use that day to study oraganic chemistry. turns out, i was doing biology and running around the block. chemistry, both paper 1 and paper 2 are deadly to me. and for me to study biology for paper one, hmm, somehow seem pathetic. i should work on my chemistry!!!!!!! and u know, i actually did, not on Wednesday, but on Thursday, where i busy looking for Nescafe. i stayed up. i have to read all 13 chapters in just like, 8 hours. so, i planned. i aim to do only particular questions. and i’m actually good at it. but when it comes to the real deal, i can’t do it. what the hell? i know. i know. i can only blame myself. i screwed up. i get it. and i was really having an emotional breakdown during the exam. and was about to cry after that when imagining that i’d get only 2.00 pointer or below. i think i’d collapse if i really get 2.00 or below. i’m gonna die. here’s a thing about my biology tuturial lecturer, she told the class that they should take me as example, that i go to lecturer’s office to study cuz i can easily access to any of the lecturers there i get stuck on something. even though i’m sick. hey, i was just happened to be sick the day i went there. and i only went there once. once. once. it’s not like i go therer every single day. oh my goodness. i was under pressure. people were thinking that i started pumping myself to success. NO!!!! i was not. and my room mate told me that one of my lecture mates asked her whether i sleep late and my room mate said yes. well i did sleep late the weeks before study week, but i was just finishing up my tutorials. i wish they read this post.

hmm, i’ll get back later. i have an appoinment. tootles.

inner healing and transformation seminar FEB 27 – MAR 1

 as usual, i am now having Informatic Science class so i get to online. This time, i would like to share about the seminar i went last friday. W reached back college at 7pm last night. And i was i dont know whether i’m tired or what. but if people ask me i’ll just say i’m tired.

Actually, i didn’t intended to join it at the first place. 100% out of my list in my agenda. no wayy no wayy no wayyy. because, i don’t wanna go through lectures anymore.everytime i think of such seminars or any other seminars, i would first think about the schedule and i will thought about the lecture sessions which normally last about 2-3 hours and i’d be wondering what would i feel at that time. and that’s it. i dont wanna go through the agony of sitting there listening but my spirit is far away from there. but then, on the second week, i started having discomfort of all the things and people around me, especially unfair division of tasks, roommates most-hated habits and stuffs like that. all these just got me so stressed out and i don’t really wanna share it out because i dont think its necessary. i believe all of us are struggling with all our problems and its really hard to carry other people’s burdens, even though you want to help, but it’s just hard. trust me, thats true. i wanted to help others, but i myself have to cope with my own trials and tribulations. i have no time for others. i mean, yes, i do, but sometimes people get so dependent on you, you just wants to run away from them. because it has become a norm(people telling their sufferings) to me, everything that they say are the same. the same. the same. the same. don’t they get bored of whining about the same thing every time? and don’t you get bored listening to those kinds of whinings from different people everyday? i’m tired. i’m just tired. so, i decided to stop. i talk less. and everyday, it just getting lesser and lesser and lesser and i know my friends feel the change in me but they dont dare to ask and i just leave it like that. i like the change that i made. because, i don’t really spend time with those i usually spend time with anymore. and i just can feel like myself. i can feel the freedom. i am the typre of person who likes to experience new things but often didn’t get to do what i want because pf peer pressure. yea maybe i suck. but not anymore. now, whatever things i want to do, i’ll do. i won’t second guess. i won’t be influenced by peer pressure anymore.

During the seminar, i tell you, the talks were not like i thought they were. the talks were fun. exciting. so many new things i came to know. all those shocking yet touching stories of people’s life. it’s inspiring. and the praise and worship team, mann they’re good although most of them are retirees. u think they don’t have the energy? u’re wrong.  at first i felt the praise and worship was a bore too, but that was because my heart is filled with the feeling of unwillingness to come to this seminar. i got to tell you this.

Our leader said we are to gather at the main entrance of the college at 4pm. we waited. for 20 mins or so, Alex said we will set off at 4.30pm. 4.30pm, we were still there. standing. i asked Alex to call Ivy, Ivy said she’s on the way. 5.15pm, no sign of her. i was getting impatient. i walked to Alan, and asked him. And he gave me the “look”. the look that he’s getting pissed off but he just trying to be patient with me. and what i hated most is, why, why can’t he tell me the truth of why theres such unnecessary problems arising????? i was really pissed off. why do i pissed off? because, my mom is waiting there. waiting at the church, to deliver my stuffs as there ain’t much clothes in my matrix locker. and stuffs like sleeping bag and all those. i asked her to come at 4.30pm cuz i thought we would be arriving there around that time. but hell, no. we arrive at 6pm!! and the bus had been waiting for us since 3.30pm. u see, how many people have they menyusahkan???

while i took my things, i didnt realise that i left my handphone in the car. and i gotta tell you, it feels horrible living without cellphone. at night, because i sleep in my sleeping bag. and i sleep on the floor. so are the rest. can u imagine, sleeping on the hard floor. backache!! and some of them were noisy. and i just felt, oh God, why are all these happening to me on this seminar?? i really wanted to reach my phone and call mom but my phone was far far away from me. and i didnt intended to borrow other people’s phone cuz i was not that close with them. i just knew them. and stuffs like that. okay i don’t know whats the time but people out there were still noisy and people inside were sighing that people outside were noisy but they didnt dare to tell them. so i got impatient, and i confronted the noisiest girl there. and i know shes pissed so i asked the other one. the one managing us. and then only they started lowering down their volume. As the Bible states, “ask, and you will be given.”. but, for some reason, even though it was uncomfortable sleeping on the floor, i still get the most wonderful sleep ever. i dont know how. lol. okay i think i should stop talking about all these craps.

p.s. this post was not posted on the day it should cuz something went wrong with the lab computers. so i saved it as a draft and thought of editing it and posting it today. so walaaa. there you go.

Hello.

hello i’m marieanne. this blog is actually created for my informatic science assignments. Our informatic science lecturer is Mr. Rudy. A little info bout him (from Ms. Soon). Last Monday, we were late for our chemistry tutorial and Ms. Soon asked who is our lecturer and we said Sir Rudy and she began describing him. She said he’s a funny person because he ever worked elsewhere before becoming lecturer. She said that those who are not lecturers at the first place but became a lecturer at a later stage, are different from the orignal lecturers that underwent education training and stuffs like that. True lecturers are more “formal” and “stick-to-the-rules”. Ms Soon, too, was not a lecturer before this. She worked in the lab, preparing chemicals and stuffs. she also worked other places as well. that is why she is more student-friendly compared to most of the lecturers there.

Actually, this is not my first blog. I’ve started blogging since 2005, when i was in Form 3. My first blog was Friendster blog. And i did a blogspot once that year but i was inactive until i forgotten the username and password for the blog. Until the end of 2006, i made myself another blogspot but its lifespan wasnt so long too and i deleted it. And finally, in 2007, i settled down with my new blog. i was active in blogging when i finished my SPM but getting more and more inactive when i enrolled Matrix. Ohh and i have a facebook too. I have facebook once in 2005 but none of my friends were playing it so it kinda got inactive, again. And now, i’ve revived it because of its popular demand among my friends who are now scattered all over the world for the sake of further studies. And since then, i blog down everything in facebook rather than my blogspot.

Now, i’d like to share about my day today. We had an extra class at 11.30 till 12pm just now. And after that, i received an sms from Alan, asking me whether i’m interested in being the MC for biology “one in a thousand” and that if i’m interested, id have to go for a meeting at 1.30pm in MP 3rd floor. i was like, breathless, i want to. but i cant, because my day schedule is fully packed. i’ve planned my afternoon to be in my mom’s office, finishing my assignments for informatic science and dinamika kemahiran. while im on my way back to my hostel, i bumped into Alan and he succeeded in pursuing me to join. so i had to postpone to go mom’s place. after the meeting, it was 2pm. and guess what time i arrived town. 2.40pm!!!!! what the hell? traffic jam???? i never seen such traffic jam before in my whole life staying in labuan. it was horrible, horrible as in, i didn’t expect labuan to have such jam. besides the one i used to see every friday after school and every holiday season near the roundabout up to the ferry terminal, theres no other jams elsewhere, i guess. okay enough bout that. after i reached the bus terminal, there was no NO.1 bus to Klinik Kesihatan. And mann i can feel my face getting paler and paler because i havent had a full breakfast and lunch. and i can feel the gastric juices spalshing agaisnt the wall of my poor stomach. i’m famished. so i went to Labuan Supermarket and bought my favourite black bean bun and a mineral water. And i get on a taxi, spent RM10 which is unnecessary. I know you’d be wondering why don’t my mom go and fetch me. well i tell you why. she said she has appointment during lunch and meeting at 2pm. actually, deep in my heart, i know, she was just lazy to fetch me. cuz she is not that into driving. but i was lazy to argue with her about it so i just tell myself to believe that what she said was true. but when i arrived here, there she is, sitting quietly in her office. i don’t blame her. at least, i get to feel the feeling of independency of my own.

that’s all i get to share for the moment.
thanks for reading.